tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-69453221368720078362024-02-21T00:54:53.919-08:00Pretty Dirty SkinniesCharliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06268094859425220477noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6945322136872007836.post-10292033325035197892011-10-12T14:07:00.000-07:002011-10-12T14:07:03.027-07:00Scattered - Day 2Scattered. That's how I feel. I don't feel in control of my life right now. Too many things on my plate, not enough time, energy, or will to get them off.<br />
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<div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666;">I've just gotten more responsibilities at work. I now do the HR duties, Sales duties, Tech Support duties, Admin Assistant duties, and just started with Accounting duties. On top of all that, I'm in charge of a project that our company is working on. My boss (the president of the company) thinks that I am this freaking genius that can finish do everything he needs me to.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666;"><br />
</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666;">I'm studying for the GRE Math test. Taking it this Saturday but haven't had time to fully study for it. I feel like I'm screwed. This is my one chance to take it and apply for grad school in Fall 2012. If I don't get good marks, then I'll just have to wait another year. I don't mind doing that but my parents would be beyond angry if that happened.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666;"><br />
</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666;">I'm trying to lose weight. I want to be Leeloo (from the Fifth Element) for Halloween. You know that one outfit of hers...the white bandages? That's it. It's very revealing. I know that. I just want to prove it to myself that I can do this by 10/29 (the day of the party). Details on this goal will come later.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666;"><br />
</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666;">I'm in a relationship. Yea, we love each other and he knows (mostly) everything about me. But we constantly have to work at the relationship; not in a bad way, but in a way that most maintained relationships require. We started dating last December and moved in with each other in June. It's still young but past the "honeymoon" phase</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-small;">.</span></div><br />
It's not like I hate being busy. I love it because when I'm not, I get bored. I just feel like I'm being spread too thin. How am I supposed to give 100% to everything when I feel like I don't have 100% to give?<br />
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Anyways, back to the main subject: my weight. Since I want to be Leeloo, I have to lose weight. I want to at least 115 by 10/29 (but I'd rather be 110lbs). After this Saturday (when I take the GRE), I'll start going to the gym. Yesterday, I started my goal of being a vegetarian. This is to help control what I eat and because it's just healthier. And it should go without saying, but NO junk food. That's my weakness. Last thing, buy a scale. The one I have right now is broken (:() and I need to have an accurate reading if I'm going to do this. Wish me luck!<br />
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Always,<br />
Charlie<br />
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<ol><li>I'm stressed and need some sort of way to let it all out. Yea, I have friends and a boyfriend to talk to, but I can't tell them everything. I feel safer being somewhat anonymous, less judged with all of you, and it's easier to keep track of everything I'm going through.</li>
<li>I'm fat. I obviously am not comfortable with myself and want to get to a point where I am able to look in the mirror and like what I see.</li>
<li>I find that writing is somewhat calming. I did have a journal; however, it was found and read. I don't think I'll feel safe writing in it for a while.</li>
<li>Writing down my goals and expectations will make it easier for me to follow through with them because of all the support I get from my fellow bloggers and because I wouldn't want to disappoint you all.</li>
</ol>So, let's get started. Hi, I'm Charlie to all those that don't remember me. I have a job (luckily), a boyfriend (whom I love), and an apartment (which I love!). I might have an eating disorder or I might not. That's for you to decide. In my opinion, I don't...I don't think it's serious enough to be one. My main problems with food come from binging. When I binge, my stomach expects more to be eaten the next couple days. This leads to me constantly eating and staying hungry. Well, I'm putting that to a stop.<br />
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No more "tomorrow". Today, I'm turning over a new leaf.<br />
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Always,<br />
Charlie<br />
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